Good luck to the team for the match tomorrow!

I'm blogging in the hotel now, and lmz's sleeping behind me. I'm homesick, swear. Though the food here is plain awesome. Hahaha.

Going to Thailand tomorrow!

Will only be back on the 2nd or 3rd of January. So Happy New Year in advance! :D


Had fitness training this morning. Wasn't very tough, but it was tiring at that point of time mm. Couldn't breathe again :( Had debrief and coach gave everyone a jersey each. Gloria loved the colour. Haha. Then hun came cause he had to wait for 2 hours before he could take his IQ test. Bathed and cabbed to the place. Bloody idiot couldn't stop disturbing Ben so I got hollered at first thing when I came out from the toilet. Idiot at question was so busy playing his game he didn't even know what happened la. (Inserts very very angry face)

Waited damn long for him to finish his test. Some uncle kept staring at me cause I was trying my best to find the nicest position to sleep in. Too bad the seats there sucked. I ended up changing positions once every 10 seconds or so. Bet I must be entertaining to watch huh.
Went to Tiong for Sakae, since it was too late to catch a movie. Saw Andre inside. It'd been long since I last saw him mm. Ate and we went to look for my screen protector. Ended up buying another casing for my phone. Punch me please :( But I love the new casing anyway. It's awesome :D

Hun went for his school training and I went home to pack.


We're both crazy over this application now: Touch Pets. Adopted a female westie that's identical to his male one yesterday. But I've no idea why his dog doesn't like her :( Must be gay like his master hahahahahahaha

Hi.

Just got off the phone with hun. And we were laughing at how funny both of us were at the taxi stand.
Both of us stood there, looked at each other for a few seconds..and title was the first word we said to each other.


4 days' just too long a time without you. (L)

Back back back to where we last met.

Am finally back. Cruise was awesome. Got to know one of lmz's friend's daughter and she's one hell of a sweet girl :)
The crew on Libra are more friendly as compared to Virgo's, and they actually look good when they cross-dress :O Christmas party was cool too. Only bad thing was that I wished hun was with me. Like real badly.
Loved the strip-off party. Funny and gay ttmx. Hahaha.

Hun came to fetch me and I didn't see him at the arrival hall. Sent lmz to the taxi stand first. Hun came over through Macs entrance and I swear I nearly ran into the wall again. Thank god for the fact that I was holding lmz's luggage. Can't imagine how red my face would've gone if I really did that. Howge came to fetch me..and he succeeded in driving me crazy. Shall not elaborate on how retarded he was behind the wheel cause I'd prefer people to think that I've a cool brother thanks. Heh. He is, anyway, to start with. He sent us to find Daddy for dinner and then he sent hun home. Awesome much? Love you, howge! (Y)


I've no idea why did I type such a long post. I had just wanted to say that I snipped off a bit of hun's hair today. Hahahahahaha damn funny. Cause he dared me, and I bet he never thought that I would actually do that.
Lurbiew, baby :D


Hope you people enjoyed your Christmas! Sorry for replying your merry-xmas messages only today :( Xx!

Why the fuck do I feel so alone?

It's been eons since I last felt this way.

And it's eating me up from the inside.


Lost the match against Siglap Secondary today, 6-1. They're good. Haha. While I played like shit. Sigh. And I twisted my right ankle again. Right knee too, while practising volley -.- Oh well, at least my klutz year's coming to an end. Will blog about my new year resolutions soon maybe?

Going to meet Lmz soon. Will miss everybody :)

Let me breathe.

Every single one of us need time to stand up after a fall.
Some take a shorter time as compared to the rest. Some won't bawl even if it does hurt. Some need a nudge from people around them, a reminder to be strong. Some would rather just sit there and watch time pass by.

Sometimes, the littlest of things knock my legs from under me. Things so minor I don't want to bother people with, but they do affect me. They really do.
These legs are still going strong thou, swear. Just need time to stand up. Please?

What Can I Say?

Piercing words, eyes are red
Watched your tail lights in the rain
Empty heart filled with regret
I know we were both to blame

And I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number
But it's been so long, it's never easy
It's like trying to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

How did it come to this?
I think about you all the time
It's no excuse, but I wish
That I never made you cry

I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
I couldn't find the word to say

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number
But it's been so long, it's never easy
It's like trying to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

What can I say?

I hate to think all you had of me
Is a memory I left you
The space between what was meant to be
And the mess that it turned into

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number
But it's been so long, it's never easy
It's like trying to spin the world the other way

It's like trying to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

What can I say?

Our second match.

Was awesome. Won, 6-2. But it's against our seniors who haven't been training for a long while so we shouldn't be too proud of ourselves yet.. But it's a great start, no? Minus away the fact that our next match is this Wednesday and the bottom of my left shin is fucking swollen. The skin there is a horrible shade of green, and there's dried blood the shape of a stud in the middle of the bruise. Does this sound awesome too? Haha. Can't seem to get rid of the dried blood. So I limped around JP with that red spot on my leg. Need to get used to this. It's not the first time I got injured huh.

Either way, the team ran 10 rounds around the field while all I did was 200 crunches. Sucks to be injured. Went to JP for lunch with Cordy, Anthea and her boyfriend. Denise pangseh us last minute, so her shoebag's sitting somewhere in my house now. Okay, time for my nap.

Bye.

Never knew chicken rice tasted this good.

Today's training wasn't so bad, but bad enough. Only ran 10s faster for the first set of 2.4km run. Died during drills again. Couldn't even shoot properly, damn. Coach changed the second set of 2.4km run to intervals so it wasn't as tiring.

I think I suck. Can't seem to kick properly these days. Need to focus during trainings. Bah.


Was supposed to meet Jane and Tze Ying after training. But I realised that I had left my money on the table at home (only when Denise asked all of us present to pay up) so I only had 15 cents with me. Hahaha yay smart me. I was too tired to go all the way to town anyway. Sorry :(
Think I won't be going to Vera's cg's Xmas party tomorrow either. Sigh, need to rest.


Came home straight after training and literally pounced on the chicken rice that Daddy bought for me even before he got through the front door. That's how hungry I was.
I think I'm starting to eat like a boy. And that's bad, very bad.

Dread.

1) Training. I think I'd die for the one tomorrow. Would hate to be breathless again ugh.

2) Cruise. That would mean Xmas without hun. Does it suck or does it suck?

3) Thailand trip. No hun again!? On new year somemore #@!


On a brighter note, today's physical was cancelled. Not like I'd normally like it, but I've some serious muscleaches from yesterday :( Ugh. Either way, met hun still. At his house, cause that retard lost his keys. His sister was nice enough to come home and lock the door for him. If it ever happened to me and Howge I would ignore him I think. Hee so mean.

Went to Great World to watch Avatar in 3D. It's awesome, a must-watch! Went to the market for dinner before coming home.


There's training tomorrow morning, 8.30am. And here I am blogging while lying on my bed. I think I ought to be shot.

Another month.

Happy 5 months, hun! I'm glad that I've you :) You people have no idea how much, but ya, I'm very glad. Really and truly.
I'd stay true uh, ignore what the team had said today! Haha. My one and only awesome baby, I love you! Thanks for the surprise that you had wanted to give me yesternight! Haha it was real sweet. We'd finish it another day uh!
Hun's like sleeping beside me (on the sofa) now. Maybe I'd go stare at him sleep once I'm done blogging. Hahaha xoxo.


Today's training was the worst one that I've ever had. Sigh. Couldn't breathe for quite a fair bit of the training and my contacts were annoying the crap out of my swollen eye. The sun was awesome too, and Gloria was saying all she wants for Xmas is clouds hahaha.
The second set of 2.4km run was horrendous. Kept stopping and poor Denise was like running with me for the whole of it. Thanks for egging me on uh ah beng bf! :D
Didn't do too well for the drills either.

Hun was saying one's stamina would decrease by three-quarters when he falls sick, and it'd take him about 2 weeks to recover fully? So basically I'm just going to die like how i did today for the next 2 weeks. Bless me.

Had KFC for lunch. Heheh it's been a while since I ate such guilty food (Y)

Okay. I think I'm going to try and sleep too. Training was really damn tiring uh :( And poor hun has his school training at 7pm later in the night. Xim tia ttm.

Bye.

Hun's back!

The title says it all.


Went to pick hun up from the airport yesterday. His plane landed at like 1742 or so. He called and told me his Dad was there too. Had a panic attack for some time.. But it went away when I saw my boy :) Poor thing's fried from all 7 games! And I'm bleaching from the lack of trainings ugh? Nvm, next training's this Wednesday. Can't wait.
His Dad sent me to Macs and I dabao-ed Double Cheeseburger for both me and Howge. Of course, I banged my head against the car door while getting off the car. Damn.

Am sleepless again, meh. Woke up early today and watched tv for a while. Then bathed to go meet hun at JP. Bloody Howge hid my phone away from me. So childish hahaha. Then hun called.


KH: Hey dear, I just left my house.
Me: Oh, hahaha k.
KH: I just left my house. I'm outside your house now.
Me: Heh?
KH: Haha come open the door!


Yeah, that's my awesome boyfriend.


So we watched Couples Retreat at JP, before going to IMM to look for some shop. Then we came home to slack and went to the Market for our dinner.
Hun installed more games into my phone.. and I personally like this game a lot. FF Lite. Took a picture of hun and he started punching himself in the game. Damn funny.
He just left and I miss him already :( Hahaha.


Chng Kah Hui is mine alright, mine. All mine. Heehee (Y)

For once, I've this huge disdain for red.

New phone, check.
Met Kenneth, check.
Chalet, check.


I so did not queue up with so many others for the phone. Hahaha went to Jurong Point and the shop there was relatively empty. Too bad their computer was down. Couldn't change my plan so I'm stuck with my student plan for another 2 years. Oh well. Beats me surfing the net everywhere and killing my phone huh.

Kenneth. I need to stop making him travel all the way to the east and west everytime. Extreme east and west, he had said. Hahaha. Thanks for the laughter. As always.

Chalet was awesome. First night was epic. Watched them play Twister. Damn funny. Especially Ben hahahahahaha. I'm not going to elaborate on Denise and Ben's tug-of-war with an unconscious me on the second night.. And I'm very sorry that I couldn't stop falling asleep on all the days :( Bloody cough med. I even fell asleep on the couch when all I wanted to do was to rest my head on the handrest!
Either way, I'm glad most of us went for the chalet, xo.


My eyes are all red and swollen after my nap, and Dad asked me not to go out tmr. I'm still going to fetch hun from the airport though! (Inserts huge smiley)

So I'm going to sleep again. Heh.

Social etiquette

is the only thing that's keeping me from coughing my lungs out.


Went to the doctor's early in the morning, and I was still behind 10 others. Went home to pack for the chalet and bathe, before meeting Denise at the bus-stop to pass her my shoe-bag. Met lmz and went to Dad's for noodles. So now I'm at home and I'll be sleeping in a bit.

Getting my new phone later with Dad, before meeting Kenneth. Then I'll find my way over to Aloha Changi maybe?

Can't wait to meet the team, xo.

Take my bed away please.

Yes, I said that.

Don't mind me, I think I'm just too sick of being sick. Ugh. And my eyes are still swollen. I don't want to wear specs for training tomorrow >:( !!


On a brighter note, M1's going to start selling iPhone on the 9th! Which is this Wednesdayyyyyyyyyy. (Y)

Wish you were here.

Sick.

I'm tired :( Like very tired. And I just slept for 3 hours. Will be sleeping after calling hun again, I guess. Drowsiness kicking in.


Let me start from Wednesday. Had training in the morning. I've no idea why but I was damn afraid of the ball that day. Didn't dare to head it, like retarded only. Bathed and went to the market at Jurong West for lunch with half the team. Hun left for his training and I went to Uncle's house to help Dad with the internet. Went home to pack for the cruise, upload songs into my mp3 and went to Uncle's house again, cause the internet died on him.

Didn't have time to change so I went in JJ's PE attire :(

Cabbed over to Vivo and had dinner before boarding the cruise. It was awesome, in a sense? Went back to the room early cause I was tired. Had fever the first night and sore throat the next day. So sad.


Thursday was better. Woke up at noon, had lunch and we walked around. Went back to sleep somemore. Went out with Dad cause he was hungry again. Drank Coke in an effort to soothe my burning throat. And maybe the heartache that came with it. Cause each can costs $6.50. Didn't stop me from drinking half a dozen on the cruise though. For my sore throat aight, for my sore throat.

Watched The Orphan at night and I swear the movie's warped. Who would you choose (to believe) next time? Your child, adopted or not, or your spouse?

Dad ate again and we went back to the room at 2am to sleep.


Friday. It was just breakfast and getting ready to disembark. Met hun when we did (he bought medium Coke too aww thanks) and parents cabbed us over to school for training.

Met the team at the gym. Arms were wobbly after the 1st set (of 20) arm work. Damn weak. Rain stopped so we went to the field. Couldn't breathe properly and I was panting damn badly when we were barely 15 minutes into field training. DAMN WEAK.

Hun left. Went to bathe and ate at Mos Burger with Ben and Cordy. Hun came over after his training and the four of us talked for a while before going to The Body Shop and leaving. Went to Superbowl with hun to eat and he left cause it was 2230 already.


Today. Woke up at 0500 and left at 0540 or so to cab to hun's house. He's going to Perth with his school's soccer team. Or should I say went? Meh. I miss him like crazy already. And crazy sure ain't enough to describe how much I miss him exactly. Sigh. He didn't even have time for breakfast, due to all the checking in and stuff :(

Went home cause I had my shoe bag with me. He put it in his bag yesterday and brought it home with him hahaha. Expected it, even though he'd said he wouldn't. Funny.

So I napped for an hour or so, Jess woke me up. Thank god. Or I would be sleeping for an even longer time. Met Yeet over at JE before meeting Jess at City Hall. Sakae at City Hall didn't have tea-time buffet so we went over to Tanjong Pagar's. It was early so we went to Ann Siang Road to look for the Adidas shop that hun had talked about. Couldn't find any so we went back to Icon Village to wait.

Hun called while we were eating and we talked for a while before he went to check in into the hotel. Found out that the Adidas shop was actually at Ann Siang Street. And he couldn't stop laughing at me -.- Bloody idiot.
I lalalove him anyway mm. I think that's warped too, but I definitely don't mind. Heh.

Yeet and I almost puked after eating. 21 plates in total for the 3 of us only? Went home straight cause I was feeling too sick.

Slept straight after showering and B woke me up. Needed it. Howge brought me to see the doctor and I just got home not long ago. Dad was nice. He went over to S11 to get me my pancake even though he was about to reach home already. Love you :)

Lmz just got home hahaha. She said I'm lovesick :(
I think that's bad.


And hun sure is taking a long time.

Cheers to my lifegivers.

Okay, so the whole point of us going to Malaysia today was to visit my grandparents. But I slept for the 2 hours over at their house. Damn kuku. Went to shop after that. Didn't buy much, but we had raw cockles and such for dinner. Awesome.

Meeting my boyfriend tomorrow. It'd kinda be our last date for a while to come? Can't wait. I think I might actually start counting down to the time when we're supposed to meet at. Teehee joking.
Lurbiew! (K)

Please do know this.

For the next few weeks that we won't be seeing each other much, I'll be missing you awfully, badly, desperately, drastically, dreadfully, exceedingly, extremely, greatly, horribly, intensely, mind-blowingly, overwhelmingly, staggeringly, terribly, tremendously and unbelievably so.

“You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable.”

- eletheowl

"It's painful not being able to realize the desires of others. It's sad not being able to realize your own desires. It's not fun for two such people to stay together."

- Nana

No trees for you.

Spent the whole of today with the boyfriend. Awesome :D And he's still beside me now! Hahahaha.

Love you. (K)

Things.

240. Uncle's house. Talked to lmz. Lakeside. Bukit Batok. Met. Pastamania. Nisa's house. Final Destination. Changed. Tanned. Played. Sauna. Bathed. Wicked Little Things. Hannah Montana: The Movie. Homed.

We ate through all the 3 movies. So sad. I think I've two stomachs now. But the day was mad fun. All 10 of us (Hyeon couldn't make it) went into the sauna together. And Nisa's screaming (at the scary parts of the movies) made all of our hearts race. Hehehe. Awesome house she's got too. (Y)

More photos from yesterday.

Xo.

Awesome people.

Slept for only one hour yesternight. Still am sleepless, don't know why.

Met Cordy in the morning. Went for waxing and got my bikiniiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Damn. I know my boobs DID shrink, but I never knew how badly.
Screw karma. Shouldn't have laughed at people last time :(

Saw Gloria at FEP. Ate at Slice before going to Ben's house. Gloria came over after a while and we went to gym and sauna.

And it's just the 4 of us today. Can't wait to meet all 10 of them tomorrow (K)

Results.

1st half: Draw, 0-0.
2nd half: Lost, 3-0.
3rd half: Lost, 3-0.

So I came home today with skinned knees and abrasions at the back of my thigh.. and with the news for lmz. Hahaha she laughed when I told her that I fell down 8 times (kh counted).

But I think I played like a bulldozer today. Anyhow body check people only. Damn violent. Hahaha sorry to the girl whose toes I stepped on, and another whose face I kicked the ball into, JingWen for the violent and random rams, LaiKuan for the body check and Jill for the pushes..

Okay I really sound damn violent. Ugh? I'm a gentle person most of the time, swear. (Y)

Our first game tomorrow.

Can't wait, and yet I kinda dread it too. My boyfriend'll be the game's referee somemore. Hahaha. He just texted to say that and that he's going to send me off. Thanks ah -.-
I love you anyway xo.

People always say that you only discover how precious something is after you lose it.

But I think, you only recognize it when you see it a second time, face to face.

Forever and 2 days?

Just came back from chalet, and match's cancelled. Didn't go for training cause I DIDN'T KNOW WE HAD ONE TILL HUN PASSED ME MY PHONE THIS MORNING.

Just ordered my iphone online too. Going to sleep now bye.

Focus on the red.

Had training from 8 to 1+ yesterday. It was tiring, having to run on normal grass. But it was good. Bathed with the team and met the boyfriend outside school. Yesterday's our 4th month :D

Went to JP's Mos Burger with Cordy, Jasmine and Gloria. I never knew it was this bad, but the fact that Gloria and Ben are so similar to each other now.. it's just horrifying. Hahaha. They left and we caught Paranormal Activity.
Best thing was, at the 'last night' of the movie, before anything had happened, the guy beside me screamed like some damsel in distress and it sent my heart racing. Damn crazy. And the whole theatre laughed at him! Till Micah was thrown towards the camera, that is.
The boyfriend bought cakes and puffs from Durian Mpire for my family and we went home for dinner.

Thanks, hun. It's amazing and annoying just now you're capable of pissing me off on this one day and making me laugh and feel good like nothing matters on the next. Not that I exactly like the former.. but I love you :) And the tag you made for me is mad awesome.
Look at the tag on my backpack next time aye, people!


I woke up at 5am today. This time, I couldn't sleep because of the movie. So I switched on the lights and my parents came in before they left. AND THEY FREAKING LAUGHED AT ME WHEN I TOLD THEM WHY. So annoying.

There's a game tomorrow, and I've chalet today. What to do :(

Just so tired.

Lmz noticed. And she kept coming into the room today to see if I'm really okay. Which was annoying at times, though sweet. Then we had dinner, and they ordered so much foooooooooooood. 5 dishes for just the 3 of us. Got fish head somemore.
Make me fat only.


I'm so tired of having to fix people, and myself. It's just plain exhausting. And it's fucking torturous to know that at the end of it all.. you're all alone.
So I asked myself today. Why bother?

One should never sleep at 4 in the morning.

Morning, all. So I'm up. With a pimple on my nose.

And I can't stop listening to this.

Thanks.

To you,

it's been 3 hours, and I still can't believe that the thing between us was this weak.

And you.

You never really understood me, did you? And basically, you just about have no fucking idea how messed up I am right now too.
When you should.


Either way, this hollow space in my chest will fill up soon. Sorry for the very emo posts today.

Find a heart that will love you at your worst, and arms that will hold you at your weakest.

I came to a lot of realizations these few days. And not all are good.

"I just got really hurt. And sometimes when that happens, something inside just shuts off."

- Fever Pitch

"What I need isn't a boyfriend. It's a warrior who would protect me."

- Nana

My brother and I.

Just got home from dinner with bro. Couldn't stop disturbing him. Hahahahhahahahahaha damn funny please.

Bro: What you want to eat?
Me: Idk leh, Macs? Or KFC?
Bro: K we eat at Macs.
Me: Eh, I feel like eating KFC's 2 piece leh.
Bro: K then we eat at KFC.

2 minutes later.

Me: Eh now I feel like eating Double Cheeseburger!
Bro: -.- Okay we go Macs.
Me: Or should I eat 2 piece ah?
Bro: WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT !?!?!???!?!?!
Me: Okay okay, you wanted KFC right. We go KFC.

Another 2 minutes later..

Me: Should I eat Zinger?
Bro: Wah. I say go KFC then you say Macs. I say go Macs then you say KFC. What do you want to eat!?
Me: I can't decide !!!!
Bro: Okay. Now I say KFC, you say Macs k. I say Macs, you say KFC. KFC!
Me: MACS.
Bro: MACS!
Me: MACS.
Bro: ... You damn cb.
Me: Heehee. MACS K!

And we ended up going to KFC cause he saw a chio bu inside. (Y)

Sucks to feel like a baby.

Woke up at 8.30 to text for a while this morning, fell asleep and finally climbed off my bed at 12pm. Had to stay home today for lmz so I entertained myself with channel 20. Pink is effing cool, I tell you. (Y)

Then lmz came out to talk to me. 5 minutes or so later, she exclaimed that my lips just suddenly turned white. So she asked me to go to sleep. And I did. That was at 3pm. Just woke up.

So define a human pig.

Promoted.

Got results yesterday after OP but I was too tired to come online at night to blog about it. S19 had lunch together too, and it was awesome. Hahaha.

(Y)

Tedium; Part 3.

I've been so tired lately. Damn. Hate it when I'm sleepless.

Had training in the morning. Went to Queensway with some of the soccerettes and hun came to join us while they were eating. Got my boots, walked around for a bit. Sent hun off and we went to Ikea for meatballs. Don't really like that thing, but I had this damn urge to eat it today. Not good.

So now I'm doing my I&R, and I'm about to fall asleep.
Wish me luck, people. It's OP tomorrow.

It's good to know.

That there'll always be this one person you can depend on, no matter what. I know it sucks to depend on that someone cause you never know when he or she might be gone. But still, that's a risk you've got to take when it comes to love, no? I love you, my boy :)


Been sleepless for the past few days. Stupid phone. Still can't decide on what to get. Must be very sure that I'll be using this new gadget for 2 years this time. (Y)


Either way, yesterday was awesome. Wanted to go to school early to jog the 10 rounds for warm-up but I took a tad too long to tape cotton pad to my soles.. Sigh.
Didn't warm-up properly and I had to dribble the ball for at least 3 rounds with burning calves. Awesome shit (Y) Also, coach praised me and I.. don't really like the feeling of my neck burning up. So paiseh.

Left early and went to meet the group at Jurong East Library. Sat there alone for an hour. They came, and I was too tired to do anything by then.. Finished the slides anyway! And we left. Liy's sayang came over to pick her up outside the library cause it was raining like crazy and I didn't want to ruin their romantic walk in the rain so I decided to stand there and wait. Was so proud of myself. Resisted the temptation to call for a cab!
Anyhow, reached Jurong East MRT and waited for hun. Wasn't even pissed yay. It's either I was too tired to bother about expressing my emotions or that I daresay I've perfected my temper management! Heehee.

IMM for food. Walked around quite a bit cause I couldn't decide what to eat. Sorry hun. Saw Ben, and that woman is imba, seriously. She could actually forget about her friend. Hahahahahahahhaa epic.

Thennnnnnnnn. Hun sent me home :)

iPhone. Yay or nay?

Kenneth's phone died on me like thrice last night and it was such a horror. Went to M1 today with parents and Dad got his new phone.

Seriously can't decide if I should get iPhone or iTouch and some normal phone. Some help please?

700.

Had training yesterday. It was my first training in a long while and it was cool, minus away the fact that my new boots are a size larger than my feet. And I ought to ask hun to teach me how to dribble and shoot properly. Or maybe even learn to love those two, which I most certainly don't.

Lmz went on a cruise again, and it's highly annoying cause I'm now in charge of my Dad's meals. Had to go out again after bathing yesterday to get him his dinner. Shag.

Dragged my ass off the bed this morning and went to school with my bruised legs. Thank you very very much, doctor. (Inserts curses) Met hun at Dover after school cause his wallet was with me. Today's our 16th week together! Yes, we got together like 15 Thursdays before. I love you, idiot.
Met a fragment of the team and we went to D's grandfather's wake. Then met howge for dinner.

So now I'm typing out my speech so LY can help me print it out. Tomorrow's our last OP rehearsal and I'm not even the least bit prepared. I'm this screwed. Need to stop doing last minute work. Haven't even touch my I&R since the last time I talked about it.

I've just convinced myself that I've got better things to do. Fuck you.

Talked and spent too much today. It was highly disturbing. Bull, project, ghost and gaming room just about sums up my day in school. Met Yeet after school and we went to RP for hun's match. Won NYP, 3-1. Jos came and it was hella fun watching the two of them bicker.

Did I mention that I had Ya Kun's for two of my meals today? Need to stop eating. I'm so sick of my fat thighs.

Where are all the annoying people when you need them.

Dependence and vulnerability are and will always be prices that I can't afford. Time for those walls to be up again.

Just reached home not long ago. Went to see some doctor in Malaysia. Booked a freaking small bus and went over with my Dad and his friends. Now my body's filled with bruises. (Y) And they're green, mind you. His friends left first cause I had to get my contacts. Malaysia's customs is damn screwed, and Dad didn't want to cab home from Kranji. No idea why. So we stood at Lakeside MRT and waited for 98 (cause my knee acted up again and we couldn't cross the overhead bridge) for more than 20 minutes cause I absolutely refuse to lose to him.
Pride. Is our best friend. And this little guy got us home alright. Maybe just a tad too tired from the day and annoyed as to why we're so similar.

My I&R's due every Monday, and I am supposed to be handing in my 3rd draft today. However.. I think I only handed it up once. Which is on the first Monday. Oh well. I'll do it tomorrow.

My Dad vomited blood out this morning.

I don't need reminders like that.

"We all have one or two wounds that no one can touch."

I'm retarded like that, embrace it.

I woke up early this morning for CIP. Walked to the bus-stop, called Nad and she didn't pick up. So I checked JX's text again, and yeah, CIP's at 1030. Realised that I was sup to be in shorts, so I went home to change. Cabbed to Jurong East Swimming Complex. Waited around for a while, texted JX and Nad. Nad overslept wtf. Jacqueline called and it didn't take long for me to realise that everybody else was at Jurong West Sports Complex. Best way to start my Saturday (Y)

It's rather embarrassing but I just want to type all of it out. Best to declare it myself to the whole damn world than to let hun do the job. Even more embarrassing mm. My boyfriend's a bitch like that heh.

So I didn't go for the CIP, no biggie. Back to 0 CIP hours again.

Called hun, and we went to Vivo for Jennifer's Body. Went to Keppel Island after movie for a picnic.
Slacked there for a few hours before it started to rain. I love hun. He shielded me from at least a million raindrops heehee. Went to some restaurant nearby and called for cab. It was damn shiok, I tell you. Having to count coins! Hahaha.

Made hun change, and we had maggee for dinner. Cooked campsbell for him and we had Ruffles together with the soup.

I love my Saturdays (though it applies selectively so). Any questions why?

Hihi I'm back.

A lot has happened since I last blogged here. The most significant one being me failing all of my subjects for Promos, and the next one would be.. me letting my piercing close maybe?

Ehehe. I feel fatter than ever nowadays, which sucks. And I'll blog later mm? Howge installed Rakion for me today. (Y)

http://ineedink.tumblr.com

How fast, it's been two months.

I still remember the first time we saw each other, which is the first soccer training that Denise and I had turned up for. There were those annoying nicknames that you'd come up with for me and me going "SHUT UP LA!" all the time. 4 months later, it was facebook before MSN and there came this one night when you had to go back to school to pass your friend some key and since then, we had never stopped texting.


"Why do you love me?"
"I just do."

And always will.

Tedium

We’re never so vulnerable than when we trust someone — but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy. -Walter Anderson

Back back back to the chio number.

I'm the only one to blame.

In the school's computer lab now. 2.5 hours of Project Work. Hear me sigh.


I've been trying very hard to change. Of course it'd worked, which was good. Life has been great ever since I got myself standing again. Then realization hit me one fine day last week. I've been changing so much that.. I have no damn idea as to what I really feel now.
Taking yesterday's incident for example. I knew better than to get irritated. But I was. I told myself I wasn't, and yet, I still was. It took me the entire Chem tutorial (which I'd mentioned previously) to convince myself that I was (while another part of me was saying no I wasn't). Failed, of course.
The walk home was painful. It started as a small nugget of pain deep inside but it grew and grew until it was a huge choking ball of agony. What had happened to me?

I know. Of all things? For those who are slow, I'm having an internal conflict. Literally.

Sorry to those who had worried. Yes, I'll work on it. By the next time I'm back to this space, I'd be fine. (Y)



P.S: Hey love. I really don't mind all that you do. It's your life we're talking about. It was just the way that you had put it.
'Awww. Alright.'

Side note.

I sound like a retard in my own blog now. That post'll be the last one of its kind. And I'll explain the last paragraph the next time I blog.

How could you have forgotten?

There, my bloodied ear (without as much of the blood). If you'd ask me to describe this week so far, I'd give it something like disastrous. See what happened to my ear when I took my retainers off after feeling the area about that piercing throb. That's Tuesday. And on that same morning, some stupid bee had apparently decided that it should end its life there and then and STINGING ME ON THE BACK WHILE I WAS BATHING seemed to be the best thing it could come up with. It's not the least bit funny if you'd ask me.


Died for training yesterday. Am I weak or am I weak? That's a rhetorical question. 45mins of physical training really killed (me). Only 45mins, mind you. So sad. Could even get myself a bruise while shooting.
Before I forget to mention, I also got a backache from Tuesday's run. So for those who laughed at how I walked like a retard today, don't mind me. I really couldn't help it. Try walking properly when every step you take with your left leg sends pain shooting up your entire damn body, and with calves that feel like they're about to give way anytime. Mm now I'm sad. We need to stop laughing at the guy in our school who walks like a duck. Cause if I'm not careful, my nickname from tomorrow onwards might be Daisy.


On a brighter note, I did my work!! That's like half of two subjects' tutorials which is like maybe about one tutorial-worth if you even bother to do the Math but at least I tried no? You might think that I would have an inkling of what's going on for lessons now but sad to say, no, cause the Maths tutorial is done so that I can hand up my Maths file (and I only did half of it omg I should be traumatized) and today, it took my Chem teacher all of 1.5 hours to finish going through the other tutorial that I'd done.
Conclusion: WeiRu needs to start studying or she'll just crash and burn for her Promos.


Yesternight, when it was raining heavily, I fell down while walking down the stairs. (I'm that retarded yes shut up) I sat there for quite a few moments and thought about everything I could think of in that few moments.
Like each of our mothers had taught us, mine had taught me to pick myself up when I fall. Of course, I stood up then and continued to walk. It took 3 seconds for embarrassment to catch up with me and I waited for my blush to go away before I turned around to see if anyone saw me. None of course heehee.

My temper's getting the better of me these days. Can't seem to do anything about it, and that's sickening. The fall woke me up.



When it's good, then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad.
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had.
I have heard myself cry, never again.
Broken down in agony just trying to find a fit.

It's official.

My parents saw Kah Hui today. Coincidentally.

Happy Birthday, boyfriend!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY MR CHNG KAH HUI, I LOVE YOU!

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you!!!

Everything will burn, baby. Burn.

I'm sorry for the sudden outburst today. I'm feeling a bit too much at the moment, and I'm really very sorry that you people had to see that.

Blurry day it was today.
The teachers that're teaching S19 are far too nice. So yesterday, I stayed up till 1am to finish my overdue GP and Physics work. Econs was crap, as usual. Asked Ms S if she would be able to give me my marks for the 15% paper if LMZ could get me a MC for the day the class took the paper. She said no, cause I had laughed at Mrs C while she was talking to me in the face and she also said that I should keep a straight face the next time it happens. It's as if she thinks that I would have another go at missing such an important paper, or that I would earn myself another date with the HOD.
I guess I'd have to live with having 0 for that test then.

Texted Cordelia and asked if she was still in school. Talked to tmbg and her before going to Sumo House at Clementi for lunch (with C only). The food there will suffice, till I save up enough money for Sakae. Walked around Cityvibe and homed.
Thanks for being there, tmbg and C. Couldn't have survived without you people heh.


Note to self: Stop trying so hard.

Words can't say what Love can do.

Was supposed to do my work yesterday. Ended up spending the entire afternoon in front of my typewriter of a computer. Had a strong urge to eat KFC so I met HuiMian over at Clementi since she's always the one coming over to Jurong to meet me. Ate at Sumo house instead. Went to Cityvibe to look for something and bought some drink for bf while we were on it.
It was when I'm on the train that I realised that the new shopping centre was called Cityvibe. Mm, and H kept laughing at me over the phone. Met bf, and we walked to a market to dabao for Dad. Talked and we bus-ed to his stop before I cabbed home.


Never did this for anyone ever before. The entire going over to somewhere far just to see someone close to the heart (yes I'm a receiver and I seldom or never do things for people not even my good friends. At least I've a slight improvement now mm), let alone a guy. I'm glad I did anyway, I've missed you. (L)
And you too, of course, H. :D

Imagine me meeting two of the most important people in my life on the same day. Happy's a Serious understatement.

Really and truly.

I could live forever with this guy.
I'm used to slacking my birthday away and leave my phone ringing in one corner of the house. Yesterday was just, wow. Could have just spent the day having a movie marathon, but the boyfriend wouldn't have it. It would have already been good enough with just you around, seriously. Thanks for making yesterday work, dear. I love you and Happy One Month! (L)


Friday was cool, thanks to tmbg and mates. My people were driving me crazy. I'd wanted my card! Damn, Nad bleeding won't give it to me. Went for training after that. The boyfriend came, and we played with his DSLR while he joined in the training. Trained for a while and tmbg left. Watched mates train, and left for JP with the boyfriend after that.
Went to the Kopitiam at new JP after walking around. Mates were there and we had dinner together. Washroomed, came back and they sang me a birthday song. Took photos and ate the cake. Thanks alot, tmbg and mates. Life couldn't have been better without you lot. Truckloads of love, ♥.

Yesterday was, well you know, best. Met the boyfriend over at Clementi. He gave me the roses. Sweet. Went over to Great World to watch G.I Joe. Oh, before I forget, I walked into a wall while we were on the way into the theatre. I thought that it was the door. Fucking hell, so embarrassing. ON MY BIRTHDAY SOMEMORE!
Cabbed to Mount Faber and slacked before going on the cable car to Sentosa. Sweeter. Ate at some Sakae outlet and we went to the beach after that. Lighted up the candles, and we sat there for quite a while. Sweetest. Cabbed home after that. Bf dropped off at his house first and Howge came down to fetch me to finish bf's deed.
Thanks, dear. You've no idea how much I'd enjoyed yesterday. (Cute guy couldn't stop asking if I'd enjoyed the day.) It was beyond great. And I'm sorry that you've to do all these even while your knee's killing you. I certainly hope that you'd enjoy the day too. (K)


Will post the photos up soon, Blogger's being a bitch.


/edit Aug18

Cross my heart.

I've decided that my long weekend had been fruitful. Sleepwise, of course.

Friday was cool shit. Slept at 4pm and woke up at 11pm, when I'd told Em that I'll discuss WR with him (online) at night. Bet he was damn pissed with me that day.
Met the boyfriend on Monday to watch Up. Sweet show, and I don't mind watching it again! Dad went crazy that night and I lived without my phone for that one night. Didn't suck as much as I thought it would. Am kinda grounded now too. Not that I'd bother to come home on time, but I didn't stay to watch the team train today. Makes me feel like throwing my shoes away and join them mm.

Anyway, poor guy had injured his knee and back during his Sunday game(s). It was heartwrenching to watch him wince. Aw, take care love. We sure are one hell of an accident prone couple huh. Haha love you much.

Oh speaking of my guy. There's this one girl I must mention.
There's always two sides to a story, and hers to theirs is something I (and I bet you too) would rather not know. But oh well. Be who you are and say what you will, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. Fucking gross bitch.

Yay can't wait for PE. So long never run already.

James No.2 in the making.

Yes, James has a twin now. And that's my sprained and veRy swollen left ankle.


/edit Aug18

My boyfriend can draw.

Yesterday.
Woke up late. Cabbed. Felt broke. IS broke. School. Boringgg. Changed. Ran 1 round. Swapped socks with my people. Ran 4 rounds. Talked. Denise came. Ran 5 more rounds. Waited for Denise. Bathed. Met the boyfriend outside school. Homed. Went to Macs. Studied while he drew. Laughed. Bought food for Dad. Slacked at stairs. LMZ came home. He left.
I love you :)


I'll blog more when I've the time. LY's touch is dying already.


P.S. Get well soon, HPY!

Love grows where trust is laid, and Love dies where trust is betrayed.

My legs fail me.

The distance which every individual in the team have to run weekly is killing me. Not that I'm ranting, really. But my legs are.. weak? My calve muscles can even cramp from the 3 rounds that we had to run for PE. Played Frisbee against another class, and I was screaming like alot. Sorry, my bad. Bet the other class was thinking that I'm a nutcase. Dammit. I think I deviate most from normalcy when I walk like I've a Frisbee stuck in between my butt cheeks (not literally of course), and that's yesterday. Either way, my calves died on me after the game.


On a much brighter note, I just handed in my EOM too! Like before the deadline, how cool is that? I really need to start catching up with my work. Starting from now mm?

So who'll volunteer to be my study partner?

Sangat cacat gila

Just got off the phone with KH. Poor guy's body is aching. Sigh.

Yesterday was an awesome day. Woke up early, texted the boyfriend and I fell asleep again. My bad. Met him still, and we went to catch Harry Potter. Movie was painful to sit through, and we left after Dumbledore died. Ate at Chippy's. He was cute. Went to somewhere outside the Esplanade and we talked till the sky turned dark. He sent me home, and I let him try a piece of the cheesecake which I (along with Ben and Den) made on Saturday. Met JingYu to give her the last piece. Bf left.
The next thing I know, bf texted to say he was on his way to the police station. Some cacat gila of a Chinaman robbed and punched him (at his block) and he fought back of course. Cacat gila even wanted to sue him for assault. Shan't elaborate on what happened and bf's alright now anyway.
Or so he said.

Love you much, love.

Call him mine.

Mine had a really screwed up day. Mine didn't feel like replying any of my messages (refer to first sentence) but he did (cause he reckoned that I would miss him mm idiot). Mine waited for me for 2 hours. Mine talked about his day with calm (and unlimited curses). Mine walked with me to our spot. Mine gave me the surprise that he'd worked on yesterday. Mine asked.
Mine. Is the love of my life. The sweetest drug, and the only one who has got enough of me to break my heart.

CKH♥

Say hi to the Dork.

Having Maths lecture now, and we just got back our Progress Report Card. Yours truly spammed Ds and Es and it is highly traumatizing, I tell you.


To-do list:
1. Wear spects, tie up my fringe, eat my books.
2. Study.
3. Study.
4. Study.
5. Kill my new Econs tutor.
6. Go to Queensway and get my things.
7. Pay attention for Maths lecture.
8. Ok I should really start to pay attention. Like starting from now.
9. Stop using LY's touch to come online during lectures.
10. Tell LMZ my results.

That's a really long list huh. And I'm so going to dread doing number 10. >:(

Fake it like you matter, that's a lie we can both keep.

Now I know why today was such a slow day. And a blur one at that. Lessons just never seem to end and breaks are a tad too short. The nicest of all songs play at the wrong beat, and the horrible ones can't even block out the noise.

You.
I feel bad. And I'm really very sorry for that day. I don't blame you for the things you're doing now (yes I did notice them, stop denying it). Maybe I just don't deserve to know you better. Ah of course I don't. Sorry.

And you.
It stings. Alot. Did you know that?


I would love the new metal to (under) my skin if it had blocked out all these raw emotions charging straight at me like how the rest did last time. But it just throbs in an awfully wrong way, making it all just suck even more.

I've to do my EOM, and study for my Essay test tomorrow, but I'm too busy whining about my emo life. Talk about teenage angst.
Ugh at least I admit that I'm angsty. Right? Fuck it, I'm off to whine again.


If embracing this huge ego of mine once again will make things easier, I would.
May there be lesser drama.
And I certainly hope that I won't regret this.

Lifegiver,

Happy Birthday.
I'm not so good with words. Just want to tell you that you've been the main reason why I look forward to tomorrow for all my life.


But someone please remind me to kick this woman whom I love so in the ass when she comes home. I still owe her one for telling Denise's grandmother that I'm like a pig (in terms of sleeping).

Hello dear, I've been missing you.

Now I know why am I as moronic as you make me sound like, cause you take up one hell of a huge space in my head.


1. GP: MJC 2005 Paper.
2. GP: Essay 2nd Draft
3. GP: 4 Newspaper Articles
4. PW: EOM
5. Chemistry: Tutorial
6. Chemistry: PC06
7. Maths: Tutorial

All of my undone work.


Looking for an article for EOM now, and it sucks like totally. Also, did I mention? NEVER add your teacher on MSN, cause her nickname(s) and personal message(s) just about drives you crazy. Literally. And mine just became the first person whom I'd ever blocked. Not mentioning the uncountable number of desperate idiots out there, of course.

Grasp your nettles firmly.

"Nettles are like all annoying, upsetting things - you have to take them firmly and they can't do you any harm. If you're afraid of them, and don't face up to them, they'll sting you good and proper and make you as miserable as can be." -Enid Blyton


He's been at the back of my head for long enough, no?
Yesterday, someone in particular told me to think about what I want in my life, and it wasn't that hard to come up with an answer to that. Well, to sum it all up, I'm a coward. The many excuses which I could come up with to avoid that question was rather alarming.
Sorry for taking so long. Had always known that I had to get him out somehow. This time, I'll really work on it. On relieving myself of this negligible but highly annoying baggage.

I ran 8.5km today.

Believe it.

Should've known better.

I feel it again. That nagging threat of paranoia from certain needs, wants and deprivation. But of course, it comes together with dependence and vulnerability, both of which are prices I can't afford. As much as I feel like embracing that one possibility, I want to run away and hide, too.

I'm having another episode. I just need a stronger dose.


Mentos. SP. Bus. Ghosts of Girlfriends Past. Coke. Mentos. Sushi. EZ-link Card. L4D. Land of The Lost. Laughter. Coke. Mentos. Bus. Train. Home.
Period. Skipped training. Feel bad. Stoned. Stoning.

I don't do so well under this sun.

I used to say I don't do so well when I'm alone (still very true), but now it's the Sun that I'm more worried about. Training seems to be a blur with it and I can't seem to focus. Sucks.

Anyway, I seemingly have more love for the night now. It used to annoy me how I just want to go home early everytime I'm out, and then again, I don't mind trading it for sleep. Now? I go running at 1 in the morning (or night, whichever you prefer) and it's fun. A slight reminder: I abhor running. I just feel like going out at a weird time these days.
Was supposed to go running at 12am with my brother yesterday but he backed out last minute. Chest pains. The first night we ran, I was all 'I will only run with my brother.' I'd gladly take back that sentence now.

I would love to go run tonight as my brother had promised me to, but the blisters on my sole are screaming in protest. Even now when I'm sitting, yes.


And I'm sleepless, don't judge me.

Part two hundred and thirty-five: I can't commit.

I still remember the pain. The hollow and empty feeling in my chest that just about ate me up last year. To go through that again.. would be hell. After all that, I'm aware of how much damage one can do to another emotionally. And yet I still repeated the mistake shortly after. I'm very sorry, A. But ah, at least our short and sweet time together numbed that goddamn feeling. Short, yes, but long enough for me to realize how pathetic I was.
A sentence to sum it all up: Karma bit me back, hard.

Which brings us back to why I can't commit. I know that I suck. Well, pretty much. But the fear of getting hurt, the fear of watching my entire life crumble in front of me and not being able to do anything is just..
And it was me who set off the chain of events, which makes it all just suck much more. (Took me eons to admit this.)


I would love to say more, but things would get a tad too personal if I say anything else. I certainly do hope that explaining it this way would help you understand better.

You'll always be that friend, for me.



There're not enough hours in a day, and I can't seem to catch up with time.
Sucked for training today. The sun killed and it's just wondrous how the world spinned at an alarming rate for me and me only. How weak.

I've Missed You.

How long has it been since I've truly wanted you to be here, and when was the last time I was not irritated by your presence? I'm glad we're both past that now.. really.


I like Malaysia, without all the unrest. Went there with my parents yesterday and I came to a realization that I really need to be more appreciative of the people around me. The world is a much better place when you smile the days away. Nearly lost my temper once (only!!) throughout the entire day, but I managed to rein it in, by telling myself that I shouldn't spoil their day for the littlest of things. It was then that I realise that I'm the one who was building all the tension up for nothing.

One question that has been bothering me for long.. When there's no trace of smile on my face, do I look like I'm about to holler at someone?


Another thing.. I really really really forgot that we had lessons today, and I woke up only after Li-Yi called my old number (which LMZ is using now) and LMZ burst into my room to tell me that my friend(s) had called quite a number of times. My phone's on nightmode as my sister is sleeping with me for these few days and I'd hate it if my phone should wake her up. My sister is VERY good at kicking people's ass, and I'm not joking.
Caught Monsters VS. Aliens after school and it's a funny show. Totally no storyline but I must say that though negligible, the feeble attempt in showing the usual "friends forever, I'll be there for you" had worked. In short, a good movie for kids. Had a good laugh with Nadia, Liyana and Clarence though.
AND I SIMPLY ADORE BOB. Aww that cute thing without brains. And of course, not forgetting Gello, the jelly that has 14(!?!??!) pineapple chunks in it.

Shut me up, and I'll get along with you.

de·vi·ant (dē'vē-ənt)
adj. Differing from a norm or from the accepted standards of a society.
n. One that differs from a norm, especially a person whose behavior and attitudes differ from accepted social standards.

And this word depicts me for my day out today.


P.S: Sorry, D. Hope that you've enjoyed your birthday celebration with me (around).

Talenttime.

Went with hpy (haopengyou) and some others, and the night was great.


Happy 78th Birthday, grandfather. :)

Shoe-throwing frenzy.

The day started off with me oversleeping, and waking up to a blasting phone.. Late as I was, I strolled the entire path to school. And sad to say, I'm officially addicted to the Twilight series again. Thanks, Liyana!!

To add on, I've gotten myself a new bruise. I had to run into the damned wall like countless of times before I could cross it. The first time I tried, Tong and Nut literally pushed me up and I was so thrilled that I dropped down immediately. Anyway, this new addition is so green now that I think it'd stay with me for at least a week. How sweet of it huh.

Physics lesson was cool. James took off his shoes and threw them at some random people who laughed at him in the LT.
Seriously.. I wonder what would I do if everybody in the LT laughed at me. Pounce on the person nearest to me and throttle him by the neck? Oh well, would never happen anyway.

Time for Physics practical.

P.S: Happy Birthday, love.

I flushed my phone down the toilet. Is that normal?

Changed my number (for the last time I swear), and my stupid phone can't stop ringing after I texted the people. Hence the title.

Keeping to the sms limit's getting on my nerves. Having to 'filter' out the repli-able messages, and ignoring the ones whom I think isn't worth 5 cents of my Pop's money.. It's a dreadful feeling, really. And I dread having to read and reply every single one of the messages later. Though I daresay that I won't grow out of the filtering of messages this fast. So for some, please don't be offended when you read this paragraph. Peace.



I've been hearing alot of things lately. And I must say.. Never attempt to sleep your problem(s) away. After my 14-hour of sleep yesterday, the entire issue was the first thing that I thought of and it was stuck on my head for the entire damn day. Including now. It was a nightmare. Much more when I realized that my bag was still unpacked. Imagine me scrambling off my bed at 5.30 in the morning and having to remember what lessons do I have later in the day. Can you see me knocking my head on my desk? Well I didn't do that. OF COURSE I DIDN'T YOU IDIOT. I only forgot to bring my goggles and brought the wrong set of notes for Econs. Big deal.
In short, dubious thoughts don't work well with exhaustion. Sleep didn't help much in making me feel better either, and I can't seem to want to do anything except to avoid the people involved.
Sucks to be me.

Caffeinated highs

In case you're another unknown reader on the net, I don't do Coffee. Coke's something to die for, really. For me at least.

I've two major tests tomorrow and I just started on only one of them. Tonight's going to be tough, and I've got no Coke to speak of.. How do I live without youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~
Okay sorry. Did I never mention that I'm a total dork? ...... Well, now you know. Is it obvious?
Don't be surprised to see me in school with my geeky spectacles with my hair tied like and hugging a book while walking. It's highly possible. I was so depressed when I got back 2 tests today and realised that I flunked both. Badly.

Would've died if not for Coke. Was 'high' for a long while, and Tong pushed me off the brink of sanity when she compared a horse's and an elephant's dick to our arms. I knew *adjust spectacles* they were huge, but she didn't have to go to the extent of showing us HOW huge.


I've to get back to my life now, one that smells of new books.

"GOODBYE!"

*Makes a melodramatic exit................

..but ends up tripping over a mountain of Chemistry and Physics guidebooks*



P.S: Believe it. I tied my fringe up like that in the above picture.

MTF, My Typical Friday.

So one day, five happy little students (Nadia, Liyana, Parveen, Li-Yi and me) were walking along this corridor in their school.. and talking about one of their inside-jokes. While they were enjoying their time together and laughing, a sadistically deranged teacher who smiles like Mr. Bean jumped out of nowhere and gave them a talk about how they should behave in the corridors (which of course, tells us that we've to talk and laugh softly). So they turned into very considerate students who walked to class very awkwardly (Liyana and I were trying very hard not to laugh i.e. spasming).

The end.


School yesterday ended at 5pm, and had a short training after that. Was raining badly so we did our drills at the PE Porch. I got a new injury yay. Another blue-black, on my right ankle. BurgerKing-ed with Gloria, Denise, Jasmine and Cordelia after that.

Need to go get something later. Have absolutely no idea what kind of shoes to wear. Pumps would showcase my blue-black(s) to the whole world, sneakers is a huge no and heels would just kill my swollen ankle. Sucks.

I should be studying, so remind me why I'm not.

The sky was somber enough today, and yet Dementia paid me another visit for the second time this month. Today's only the 14th, mind you. The company of inextricable confusion is rather, suffocating.

In other words, I'm too stoned to study.


Friends. It's just amazing how some people find comfort in the number of that that they have..
Met Grandpa on Tuesday for movie. How long has it been that I've been able to feel so at ease with another individual? Long enough.. for me to feel the pain when he left. Then again, it's all my own fault. Sincerity and appreciativeness. I'd never been able to connect with this two words. Regret's what I get at the end most of the time and it's even more amazing just how regret's not enough to wake me up.
.. and ironically, I'm quite bothered that mine number is diminishing. How often had I gotten a "I didn't know how to bring it up to you ma!" Twice, and I think that it's more than enough.

Reality's annoying and realization sucks, even more so when you're the last to know. Embrace it, I'm oversensitive and I live life as though the whole world owes me money.
Time to stop being apathetic, bugger.



More about life.
Watched Star Trek on Tuesday, and the movie's great. Got home at midnight or so, mainly due to the reason that I've this thing for bikes. I decided against cabbing so bus was our only means of transport then. Been five months, I've missed you :) Thanks alot for that day, and sorry that you'd to pay for everything.
Didn't have enough sleep, so Wednesday was crap. Was planning to go straight home after school, so I didn't bring boots. Went for training in the end and I kissed the damn ball twice, got kicked in the shin twice and was stepped on once. Speaking of injuries, I think I should name them out. Don't be surprised please. Yours truly is highly fragile. Let's see.. I've one huge blister on my left thumb, one blue-black on my left shin, two on my right, a polka-dotted blue-black right foot, a water(pus)-filled blister on each sole, an on-off swollen right ankle and a rambutan on my forehead. Fragile but unbreakable mm?
Today was awesome. Got back Forces' test, a whopping 3/10, and I came home straight to sleep the horror away. Ended up oversleeping, and here I am. Doing everything but study.


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