Coward.

To say I played badly for yesterday's game would be an understatement. Everybody was working so hard.. and I didn't even contribute much.
The aftermath of the game was worse. I felt so guilty I did not even know what to say to anybody. Felt so tired. Not from the game. Just so tired of myself. I'm sorry, team.
Didn't go and repair my phone so I could hear what coach had to say. Then I came home with the boyfriend. He came all the way over to watch my game and I snapped at him. I knew better than to do that. But I did. I'm sorry, hun.


So I didn't go to school today. Cause I'm ashamed of myself. Yes, I really am. I wouldn't be able to come up with anything to say to the team first thing in the morning and the thought of seeing them just.. terrifies me.
There's even Physics practical today, and I chose to give it a miss. Any idea how bad..?
Best thing is I chose to skip school and training cause of this. There can never be a better title for this post other than the word 'coward'. If I could bold it and make it fill up the whole of this space, I would.

Chinese New Year's just around the corner and I haven't got any clothes yet. Speak of fml. Hahaha.


Life's been a major bitch. And it's my own damned fault. This post is full of im-sorry(s) but seriously, I've no other way of saying it better, and I've no idea what else is there to say.

Now's not the time to feel vulnerable. Walls up again, mm?