I've been trying very hard to change. Of course it'd worked, which was good. Life has been great ever since I got myself standing again. Then realization hit me one fine day last week. I've been changing so much that.. I have no damn idea as to what I really feel now.
Taking yesterday's incident for example. I knew better than to get irritated. But I was. I told myself I wasn't, and yet, I still was. It took me the entire Chem tutorial (which I'd mentioned previously) to convince myself that I was (while another part of me was saying no I wasn't). Failed, of course.
The walk home was painful. It started as a small nugget of pain deep inside but it grew and grew until it was a huge choking ball of agony. What had happened to me?
I know. Of all things? For those who are slow, I'm having an internal conflict. Literally.
Sorry to those who had worried. Yes, I'll work on it. By the next time I'm back to this space, I'd be fine. (Y)
P.S: Hey love. I really don't mind all that you do. It's your life we're talking about. It was just the way that you had put it.
3 comments:
hpy don't be so emo lol. things will turn for the better! all bad things come to an end! everytime it rains, it will stop somehow, and at the end of it, rainbow will appear! so ya cheer up man! don't get too sad over small stuffs and STOP PUSHING YOU ALREADY DYING BODY TO A EVEN WORSE STATE LOL
Hello weiru,
didn't know you have a blog.
hope you will win your internal war inside. seeya in school tml.
xoxo,
margy
Hahaha hpy, thanks alot! And I won't la, my body's doing fine nowww.
Hi marge! Haha thanks yo :D See you at training later (L)
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