Cheers to my lifegivers.

Okay, so the whole point of us going to Malaysia today was to visit my grandparents. But I slept for the 2 hours over at their house. Damn kuku. Went to shop after that. Didn't buy much, but we had raw cockles and such for dinner. Awesome.

Meeting my boyfriend tomorrow. It'd kinda be our last date for a while to come? Can't wait. I think I might actually start counting down to the time when we're supposed to meet at. Teehee joking.
Lurbiew! (K)

Please do know this.

For the next few weeks that we won't be seeing each other much, I'll be missing you awfully, badly, desperately, drastically, dreadfully, exceedingly, extremely, greatly, horribly, intensely, mind-blowingly, overwhelmingly, staggeringly, terribly, tremendously and unbelievably so.

“You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable.”

- eletheowl

"It's painful not being able to realize the desires of others. It's sad not being able to realize your own desires. It's not fun for two such people to stay together."

- Nana

No trees for you.

Spent the whole of today with the boyfriend. Awesome :D And he's still beside me now! Hahahaha.

Love you. (K)

Things.

240. Uncle's house. Talked to lmz. Lakeside. Bukit Batok. Met. Pastamania. Nisa's house. Final Destination. Changed. Tanned. Played. Sauna. Bathed. Wicked Little Things. Hannah Montana: The Movie. Homed.

We ate through all the 3 movies. So sad. I think I've two stomachs now. But the day was mad fun. All 10 of us (Hyeon couldn't make it) went into the sauna together. And Nisa's screaming (at the scary parts of the movies) made all of our hearts race. Hehehe. Awesome house she's got too. (Y)

More photos from yesterday.

Xo.

Awesome people.

Slept for only one hour yesternight. Still am sleepless, don't know why.

Met Cordy in the morning. Went for waxing and got my bikiniiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Damn. I know my boobs DID shrink, but I never knew how badly.
Screw karma. Shouldn't have laughed at people last time :(

Saw Gloria at FEP. Ate at Slice before going to Ben's house. Gloria came over after a while and we went to gym and sauna.

And it's just the 4 of us today. Can't wait to meet all 10 of them tomorrow (K)

Results.

1st half: Draw, 0-0.
2nd half: Lost, 3-0.
3rd half: Lost, 3-0.

So I came home today with skinned knees and abrasions at the back of my thigh.. and with the news for lmz. Hahaha she laughed when I told her that I fell down 8 times (kh counted).

But I think I played like a bulldozer today. Anyhow body check people only. Damn violent. Hahaha sorry to the girl whose toes I stepped on, and another whose face I kicked the ball into, JingWen for the violent and random rams, LaiKuan for the body check and Jill for the pushes..

Okay I really sound damn violent. Ugh? I'm a gentle person most of the time, swear. (Y)

Our first game tomorrow.

Can't wait, and yet I kinda dread it too. My boyfriend'll be the game's referee somemore. Hahaha. He just texted to say that and that he's going to send me off. Thanks ah -.-
I love you anyway xo.

People always say that you only discover how precious something is after you lose it.

But I think, you only recognize it when you see it a second time, face to face.

Forever and 2 days?

Just came back from chalet, and match's cancelled. Didn't go for training cause I DIDN'T KNOW WE HAD ONE TILL HUN PASSED ME MY PHONE THIS MORNING.

Just ordered my iphone online too. Going to sleep now bye.

Focus on the red.

Had training from 8 to 1+ yesterday. It was tiring, having to run on normal grass. But it was good. Bathed with the team and met the boyfriend outside school. Yesterday's our 4th month :D

Went to JP's Mos Burger with Cordy, Jasmine and Gloria. I never knew it was this bad, but the fact that Gloria and Ben are so similar to each other now.. it's just horrifying. Hahaha. They left and we caught Paranormal Activity.
Best thing was, at the 'last night' of the movie, before anything had happened, the guy beside me screamed like some damsel in distress and it sent my heart racing. Damn crazy. And the whole theatre laughed at him! Till Micah was thrown towards the camera, that is.
The boyfriend bought cakes and puffs from Durian Mpire for my family and we went home for dinner.

Thanks, hun. It's amazing and annoying just now you're capable of pissing me off on this one day and making me laugh and feel good like nothing matters on the next. Not that I exactly like the former.. but I love you :) And the tag you made for me is mad awesome.
Look at the tag on my backpack next time aye, people!


I woke up at 5am today. This time, I couldn't sleep because of the movie. So I switched on the lights and my parents came in before they left. AND THEY FREAKING LAUGHED AT ME WHEN I TOLD THEM WHY. So annoying.

There's a game tomorrow, and I've chalet today. What to do :(

Just so tired.

Lmz noticed. And she kept coming into the room today to see if I'm really okay. Which was annoying at times, though sweet. Then we had dinner, and they ordered so much foooooooooooood. 5 dishes for just the 3 of us. Got fish head somemore.
Make me fat only.


I'm so tired of having to fix people, and myself. It's just plain exhausting. And it's fucking torturous to know that at the end of it all.. you're all alone.
So I asked myself today. Why bother?

One should never sleep at 4 in the morning.

Morning, all. So I'm up. With a pimple on my nose.

And I can't stop listening to this.

Thanks.

To you,

it's been 3 hours, and I still can't believe that the thing between us was this weak.

And you.

You never really understood me, did you? And basically, you just about have no fucking idea how messed up I am right now too.
When you should.


Either way, this hollow space in my chest will fill up soon. Sorry for the very emo posts today.

Find a heart that will love you at your worst, and arms that will hold you at your weakest.

I came to a lot of realizations these few days. And not all are good.

"I just got really hurt. And sometimes when that happens, something inside just shuts off."

- Fever Pitch

"What I need isn't a boyfriend. It's a warrior who would protect me."

- Nana

My brother and I.

Just got home from dinner with bro. Couldn't stop disturbing him. Hahahahhahahahahaha damn funny please.

Bro: What you want to eat?
Me: Idk leh, Macs? Or KFC?
Bro: K we eat at Macs.
Me: Eh, I feel like eating KFC's 2 piece leh.
Bro: K then we eat at KFC.

2 minutes later.

Me: Eh now I feel like eating Double Cheeseburger!
Bro: -.- Okay we go Macs.
Me: Or should I eat 2 piece ah?
Bro: WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT !?!?!???!?!?!
Me: Okay okay, you wanted KFC right. We go KFC.

Another 2 minutes later..

Me: Should I eat Zinger?
Bro: Wah. I say go KFC then you say Macs. I say go Macs then you say KFC. What do you want to eat!?
Me: I can't decide !!!!
Bro: Okay. Now I say KFC, you say Macs k. I say Macs, you say KFC. KFC!
Me: MACS.
Bro: MACS!
Me: MACS.
Bro: ... You damn cb.
Me: Heehee. MACS K!

And we ended up going to KFC cause he saw a chio bu inside. (Y)

Sucks to feel like a baby.

Woke up at 8.30 to text for a while this morning, fell asleep and finally climbed off my bed at 12pm. Had to stay home today for lmz so I entertained myself with channel 20. Pink is effing cool, I tell you. (Y)

Then lmz came out to talk to me. 5 minutes or so later, she exclaimed that my lips just suddenly turned white. So she asked me to go to sleep. And I did. That was at 3pm. Just woke up.

So define a human pig.

Promoted.

Got results yesterday after OP but I was too tired to come online at night to blog about it. S19 had lunch together too, and it was awesome. Hahaha.

(Y)

Tedium; Part 3.

I've been so tired lately. Damn. Hate it when I'm sleepless.

Had training in the morning. Went to Queensway with some of the soccerettes and hun came to join us while they were eating. Got my boots, walked around for a bit. Sent hun off and we went to Ikea for meatballs. Don't really like that thing, but I had this damn urge to eat it today. Not good.

So now I'm doing my I&R, and I'm about to fall asleep.
Wish me luck, people. It's OP tomorrow.

It's good to know.

That there'll always be this one person you can depend on, no matter what. I know it sucks to depend on that someone cause you never know when he or she might be gone. But still, that's a risk you've got to take when it comes to love, no? I love you, my boy :)


Been sleepless for the past few days. Stupid phone. Still can't decide on what to get. Must be very sure that I'll be using this new gadget for 2 years this time. (Y)


Either way, yesterday was awesome. Wanted to go to school early to jog the 10 rounds for warm-up but I took a tad too long to tape cotton pad to my soles.. Sigh.
Didn't warm-up properly and I had to dribble the ball for at least 3 rounds with burning calves. Awesome shit (Y) Also, coach praised me and I.. don't really like the feeling of my neck burning up. So paiseh.

Left early and went to meet the group at Jurong East Library. Sat there alone for an hour. They came, and I was too tired to do anything by then.. Finished the slides anyway! And we left. Liy's sayang came over to pick her up outside the library cause it was raining like crazy and I didn't want to ruin their romantic walk in the rain so I decided to stand there and wait. Was so proud of myself. Resisted the temptation to call for a cab!
Anyhow, reached Jurong East MRT and waited for hun. Wasn't even pissed yay. It's either I was too tired to bother about expressing my emotions or that I daresay I've perfected my temper management! Heehee.

IMM for food. Walked around quite a bit cause I couldn't decide what to eat. Sorry hun. Saw Ben, and that woman is imba, seriously. She could actually forget about her friend. Hahahahahahahhaa epic.

Thennnnnnnnn. Hun sent me home :)

iPhone. Yay or nay?

Kenneth's phone died on me like thrice last night and it was such a horror. Went to M1 today with parents and Dad got his new phone.

Seriously can't decide if I should get iPhone or iTouch and some normal phone. Some help please?

700.

Had training yesterday. It was my first training in a long while and it was cool, minus away the fact that my new boots are a size larger than my feet. And I ought to ask hun to teach me how to dribble and shoot properly. Or maybe even learn to love those two, which I most certainly don't.

Lmz went on a cruise again, and it's highly annoying cause I'm now in charge of my Dad's meals. Had to go out again after bathing yesterday to get him his dinner. Shag.

Dragged my ass off the bed this morning and went to school with my bruised legs. Thank you very very much, doctor. (Inserts curses) Met hun at Dover after school cause his wallet was with me. Today's our 16th week together! Yes, we got together like 15 Thursdays before. I love you, idiot.
Met a fragment of the team and we went to D's grandfather's wake. Then met howge for dinner.

So now I'm typing out my speech so LY can help me print it out. Tomorrow's our last OP rehearsal and I'm not even the least bit prepared. I'm this screwed. Need to stop doing last minute work. Haven't even touch my I&R since the last time I talked about it.

I've just convinced myself that I've got better things to do. Fuck you.

Talked and spent too much today. It was highly disturbing. Bull, project, ghost and gaming room just about sums up my day in school. Met Yeet after school and we went to RP for hun's match. Won NYP, 3-1. Jos came and it was hella fun watching the two of them bicker.

Did I mention that I had Ya Kun's for two of my meals today? Need to stop eating. I'm so sick of my fat thighs.

Where are all the annoying people when you need them.

Dependence and vulnerability are and will always be prices that I can't afford. Time for those walls to be up again.

Just reached home not long ago. Went to see some doctor in Malaysia. Booked a freaking small bus and went over with my Dad and his friends. Now my body's filled with bruises. (Y) And they're green, mind you. His friends left first cause I had to get my contacts. Malaysia's customs is damn screwed, and Dad didn't want to cab home from Kranji. No idea why. So we stood at Lakeside MRT and waited for 98 (cause my knee acted up again and we couldn't cross the overhead bridge) for more than 20 minutes cause I absolutely refuse to lose to him.
Pride. Is our best friend. And this little guy got us home alright. Maybe just a tad too tired from the day and annoyed as to why we're so similar.

My I&R's due every Monday, and I am supposed to be handing in my 3rd draft today. However.. I think I only handed it up once. Which is on the first Monday. Oh well. I'll do it tomorrow.

My Dad vomited blood out this morning.

I don't need reminders like that.

"We all have one or two wounds that no one can touch."