Friday, August 28, 2009

I'm the only one to blame.

In the school's computer lab now. 2.5 hours of Project Work. Hear me sigh.


I've been trying very hard to change. Of course it'd worked, which was good. Life has been great ever since I got myself standing again. Then realization hit me one fine day last week. I've been changing so much that.. I have no damn idea as to what I really feel now.
Taking yesterday's incident for example. I knew better than to get irritated. But I was. I told myself I wasn't, and yet, I still was. It took me the entire Chem tutorial (which I'd mentioned previously) to convince myself that I was (while another part of me was saying no I wasn't). Failed, of course.
The walk home was painful. It started as a small nugget of pain deep inside but it grew and grew until it was a huge choking ball of agony. What had happened to me?

I know. Of all things? For those who are slow, I'm having an internal conflict. Literally.

Sorry to those who had worried. Yes, I'll work on it. By the next time I'm back to this space, I'd be fine. (Y)



P.S: Hey love. I really don't mind all that you do. It's your life we're talking about. It was just the way that you had put it.
'Awww. Alright.'

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Side note.

I sound like a retard in my own blog now. That post'll be the last one of its kind. And I'll explain the last paragraph the next time I blog.

How could you have forgotten?


There, my bloodied ear (without as much of the blood). If you'd ask me to describe this week so far, I'd give it something like disastrous. See what happened to my ear when I took my retainers off after feeling the area about that piercing throb. That's Tuesday. And on that same morning, some stupid bee had apparently decided that it should end its life there and then and STINGING ME ON THE BACK WHILE I WAS BATHING seemed to be the best thing it could come up with. It's not the least bit funny if you'd ask me.


Died for training yesterday. Am I weak or am I weak? That's a rhetorical question. 45mins of physical training really killed (me). Only 45mins, mind you. So sad. Could even get myself a bruise while shooting.
Before I forget to mention, I also got a backache from Tuesday's run. So for those who laughed at how I walked like a retard today, don't mind me. I really couldn't help it. Try walking properly when every step you take with your left leg sends pain shooting up your entire damn body, and with calves that feel like they're about to give way anytime. Mm now I'm sad. We need to stop laughing at the guy in our school who walks like a duck. Cause if I'm not careful, my nickname from tomorrow onwards might be Daisy.


On a brighter note, I did my work!! That's like half of two subjects' tutorials which is like maybe about one tutorial-worth if you even bother to do the Math but at least I tried no? You might think that I would have an inkling of what's going on for lessons now but sad to say, no, cause the Maths tutorial is done so that I can hand up my Maths file (and I only did half of it omg I should be traumatized) and today, it took my Chem teacher all of 1.5 hours to finish going through the other tutorial that I'd done.
Conclusion: WeiRu needs to start studying or she'll just crash and burn for her Promos.


Yesternight, when it was raining heavily, I fell down while walking down the stairs. (I'm that retarded yes shut up) I sat there for quite a few moments and thought about everything I could think of in that few moments.
Like each of our mothers had taught us, mine had taught me to pick myself up when I fall. Of course, I stood up then and continued to walk. It took 3 seconds for embarrassment to catch up with me and I waited for my blush to go away before I turned around to see if anyone saw me. None of course heehee.

My temper's getting the better of me these days. Can't seem to do anything about it, and that's sickening. The fall woke me up.



When it's good, then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad.
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had.
I have heard myself cry, never again.
Broken down in agony just trying to find a fit.

Monday, August 24, 2009

It's official.

My parents saw Kah Hui today. Coincidentally.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Happy Birthday, boyfriend!




HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY MR CHNG KAH HUI, I LOVE YOU!

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you!!!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Everything will burn, baby. Burn.

I'm sorry for the sudden outburst today. I'm feeling a bit too much at the moment, and I'm really very sorry that you people had to see that.

Blurry day it was today.
The teachers that're teaching S19 are far too nice. So yesterday, I stayed up till 1am to finish my overdue GP and Physics work. Econs was crap, as usual. Asked Ms S if she would be able to give me my marks for the 15% paper if LMZ could get me a MC for the day the class took the paper. She said no, cause I had laughed at Mrs C while she was talking to me in the face and she also said that I should keep a straight face the next time it happens. It's as if she thinks that I would have another go at missing such an important paper, or that I would earn myself another date with the HOD.
I guess I'd have to live with having 0 for that test then.

Texted Cordelia and asked if she was still in school. Talked to tmbg and her before going to Sumo House at Clementi for lunch (with C only). The food there will suffice, till I save up enough money for Sakae. Walked around Cityvibe and homed.
Thanks for being there, tmbg and C. Couldn't have survived without you people heh.


Note to self: Stop trying so hard.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Words can't say what Love can do.

Was supposed to do my work yesterday. Ended up spending the entire afternoon in front of my typewriter of a computer. Had a strong urge to eat KFC so I met HuiMian over at Clementi since she's always the one coming over to Jurong to meet me. Ate at Sumo house instead. Went to Cityvibe to look for something and bought some drink for bf while we were on it.
It was when I'm on the train that I realised that the new shopping centre was called Cityvibe. Mm, and H kept laughing at me over the phone. Met bf, and we walked to a market to dabao for Dad. Talked and we bus-ed to his stop before I cabbed home.


Never did this for anyone ever before. The entire going over to somewhere far just to see someone close to the heart (yes I'm a receiver and I seldom or never do things for people not even my good friends. At least I've a slight improvement now mm), let alone a guy. I'm glad I did anyway, I've missed you. (L)
And you too, of course, H. :D

Imagine me meeting two of the most important people in my life on the same day. Happy's a Serious understatement.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Really and truly.

I could live forever with this guy.
I'm used to slacking my birthday away and leave my phone ringing in one corner of the house. Yesterday was just, wow. Could have just spent the day having a movie marathon, but the boyfriend wouldn't have it. It would have already been good enough with just you around, seriously. Thanks for making yesterday work, dear. I love you and Happy One Month! (L)


Friday was cool, thanks to tmbg and mates. My people were driving me crazy. I'd wanted my card! Damn, Nad bleeding won't give it to me. Went for training after that. The boyfriend came, and we played with his DSLR while he joined in the training. Trained for a while and tmbg left. Watched mates train, and left for JP with the boyfriend after that.
Went to the Kopitiam at new JP after walking around. Mates were there and we had dinner together. Washroomed, came back and they sang me a birthday song. Took photos and ate the cake. Thanks alot, tmbg and mates. Life couldn't have been better without you lot. Truckloads of love, ♥.

Yesterday was, well you know, best. Met the boyfriend over at Clementi. He gave me the roses. Sweet. Went over to Great World to watch G.I Joe. Oh, before I forget, I walked into a wall while we were on the way into the theatre. I thought that it was the door. Fucking hell, so embarrassing. ON MY BIRTHDAY SOMEMORE!
Cabbed to Mount Faber and slacked before going on the cable car to Sentosa. Sweeter. Ate at some Sakae outlet and we went to the beach after that. Lighted up the candles, and we sat there for quite a while. Sweetest. Cabbed home after that. Bf dropped off at his house first and Howge came down to fetch me to finish bf's deed.
Thanks, dear. You've no idea how much I'd enjoyed yesterday. (Cute guy couldn't stop asking if I'd enjoyed the day.) It was beyond great. And I'm sorry that you've to do all these even while your knee's killing you. I certainly hope that you'd enjoy the day too. (K)


Will post the photos up soon, Blogger's being a bitch.


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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Cross my heart.

I've decided that my long weekend had been fruitful. Sleepwise, of course.

Friday was cool shit. Slept at 4pm and woke up at 11pm, when I'd told Em that I'll discuss WR with him (online) at night. Bet he was damn pissed with me that day.
Met the boyfriend on Monday to watch Up. Sweet show, and I don't mind watching it again! Dad went crazy that night and I lived without my phone for that one night. Didn't suck as much as I thought it would. Am kinda grounded now too. Not that I'd bother to come home on time, but I didn't stay to watch the team train today. Makes me feel like throwing my shoes away and join them mm.

Anyway, poor guy had injured his knee and back during his Sunday game(s). It was heartwrenching to watch him wince. Aw, take care love. We sure are one hell of an accident prone couple huh. Haha love you much.

Oh speaking of my guy. There's this one girl I must mention.
There's always two sides to a story, and hers to theirs is something I (and I bet you too) would rather not know. But oh well. Be who you are and say what you will, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. Fucking gross bitch.

Yay can't wait for PE. So long never run already.

Monday, August 3, 2009

James No.2 in the making.

Yes, James has a twin now. And that's my sprained and veRy swollen left ankle.


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